becoming planted

anyone who knows me knows i dont like change.
i have never been that girl that adjusted well to anything becoming different in my life. ever. 
i like to stay in the same place, know the same people, go to the same stores, drive the same roads every time,use the same toothpaste {get the picture?} BUT since being married to my wonderful husband, i have had to learn to adjust. 

since getting married in march of 2009, we have lived in 3 different apartments. we have packed up all our things & moved 3 times. prior to all this moving, i lived in the same house for 15 years. i have always loved making a place feel like home & staying planted. 

so why is there a stirring in my heart to go?

we desire to go & do what the LORD asks of us, even if he is calling us to leave. we desire to go & share his love to those who need it. but i have always desired to do it in a place where i have felt rooted. 
it is so unlike me to feel like i want to pack everything & go. 
i am not sure if this stirring to get up & leave is a calling from the LORD to move away, or if it is a desire to have a home rather than be in between & not ever sure how long you are going to stay. 

as much as i desire to be where the LORD would have us i also desire to get planted. i read this post yesterday & it really got me thinking about how much i desire to plant & have roots.
i long to have friendships that are so deep, & so real. 
i want to be able to sit 18 years from now with sweet friends & remember the day that our littles were born. to live in deep real community with those around us. to be within walking distance of best friends. i desire for maggie to have her best friends living so close. {maybe next door..} i want to make our home wherever the LORD would have it to be, but if i could pick, i want to make our home here. i want to find a place to plant. i want to have a home.


these are some of the deepest desires of my heart. 

but, i will be patient. 
i will choose to be satisfied.
because where i am, where we are, its just where the LORD has put us.
i know that those friendships will come, the house will show up - or it wont & the LORD will equip me for a lifetime of uncertainty. he will direct my paths to be rooted & planted in him. because there is no other place in the whole world that i could plant our family in that would be richer than being planted in him.