he gifted me the 'a' & the 'n' & the 'm' so that someday we can all enjoy drinking out of them together. {they are so lovely i can not stop using mine.} i was also gifted this lovely perfume that i dreamed of buying to wear on our wedding day, but never actually got around to buying. we just laid in bed as a sweet little family of 3 for over an hour before getting up & heading out to starbucks for breakfast. it was a lovely day, even though i had a pretty terrible migraine that left me in tears near the afternoon. i feel so blessed to be a mama. so blessed that while i was putting our sweet pea to sleep that night i had the chance to pray hard for so many things. for her, & for me & for my husband. i spent a good 45 mins trying to get her to sleep all the while praying & talking to my father. it might have been the highlight of my whole day.
so i eluded in my last post {by the way, how sweet is my husband for writing what he wrote?!} that there were some exciting things to share. i have thought about how to share them for the past 4 days & i feel like its not real so i cant express it, but the truth is that its real, its happening & i couldnt be more thankful.
here is a piece of my heart::
when we discovered that we were having a baby we were so excited. so excited about all the wonderful things awaiting us. we knew it wouldnt be easy & we knew it was not the 'perfect' time. we both worked & needed to be working because otherwise we would be negative every month. & oh how our hearts desired for me to be able to stay at home. they have always desired that. but the timing was not right. so we prayed. we prayed & prayed that the LORD would prepare us for being a working family. we prayed & prayed that he would give us strength & we prayed that he would open up a way for me to stay at home. we were satisfied with whatever he decided for us. & it seemed he was writing our story with me back at work after our little pearl was born. i was blessed to take an 18 week maternity leave & to be able to go back part time. {like super part time...} in about january the LORD spoke to my heart & told me that it was time for me to trust him completely & that trusting him meant giving him control over our money & staying home from to raise our baby girl. what the heck!? i have been known to really idolize money. to think i can not live without it. & the LORD gave me complete peace about giving it over to him. i shared that with my husband & he agreed, but we needed to both pray about it more & work some things out. nick was promoted & i had been just having the hardest time back at work because that is not where my heart was. my heart longed to be at home making a home, praying for my husband, snuggling with my baby. we prayed more & talked more & on sunday the first of may, my sweet husband told me to quit. he told me it was ok to stay home. & my heart soared. not just because i was no longer going to work, but because we were being obedient to what the LORD had called us to do. {i just want to be sure that you all know that if you are a mama who has to work, i do not think it is bad. i admire you because i know it is hard, hard work. this is just what the LORD had called us to do & if he has written your story differently than i think it is ok. i think that following him is far more important than anything else...} so, all that being said, on friday i put in my notice after working for starbucks for almost 5 years. at the end of this month i will become a stay at home mama & i could not be happier. i am so excited to start this crazy journey of living on 1 income {because honestly it doesnt work out on paper...} & trusting the LORD to provide for us. i am excited to spend so much time with maggie p. i am so excited to serve my husband better {because i couldnt balance working & all those other things.} so, that is just a small piece of some things that are going on over here. we are feeling very blessed.
